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Here is quick update on what is up with me. Hello one subscriber! Love ya girl ;)

I just got back yesterday from a month long family adventure. Christmas was very nice. I promise to fill you on that after I settle in. My second semester starts tomorrow and I'm comfortable (enough) with that. I really want to focus on my heath and getting on a better schedule. More to come about that later as well.



Things I can't avoid no matter how hard I try-

1. Wanting to adopt every cute puppy and kitten in the world.
2. Making lists. To-do, pro/con, plans, favorites...
3. Feeling something is missing when I spend a holiday with the opposite parent.
4. Making less than satisfactory math marks.
5. Not making it all the way through an upbeat song without dancing.
6. Wanting to solve everybody else's problems regardless of circumstance.
7. Becoming crippled at the thought of doing a presentation.
8. Falling back into veganism. Sometimes without even realizing it!
9. Having the longing to be the next Meryl Streep.
10.My bargain hunting tendencies.

Hello December!
I love the first days of new months. They always seem like THE perfect time to try something new, start fresh, plan for the future, track goals, and better myself. While I hate the cold, I really enjoy being able to snuggle underneath three blankets drinking hot tea late at night. Nothing makes me happier than blasting Christmas music during my morning shower. I'm sure my neighbors love me for that.

In less than two weeks I will be in Pennsylvania again to visit my dad for some pre holiday fun. On the 22nd of this month I'll be flying again to South Carolina to seem my mom to spend time with her. Before that time I have several finals to prep for. In all honesty, this semsmeter has been a breeze. I have no excuse for slacking off and I have been recently. Right now I need to focus all of my energy on getting the highest marks possible, getting good rest, eating well, and figure out exactly what to get my family for Christmas!

I am so happy to be alive, healthy, and going home for the holiday!

Backwards fairy tale.

It always seems as though my best friends step in right when I need them. Sometimes it happens before I even speak up about the issue. A long distance pall always calls right in the midst of a crisis. Apparently, I send out daistress vibes. I am something to be scientifically studied.

Life can be positively horrifying sometimes. I am so glad miles and highways cannot and will not seperate the love they have for me. Surround yourself with positive people. Your friends and family who truly care want nothing but the best for you and your future.


To: Lindsey, Eric, Olivia, Davy, Tina, Cyndy, Mom, and Kerry,
Thank you for late night phone calls, Starbucks gift cards, texting to check in on me, never underestimating my potential, respecting my privacy, offering sound advice, and sending positive thoughts my way. I am so greatful for your support. I love you, I love you, I love you.


Thanks to the people listed above, I have learned that when faced with a problem one should:
Breathe deep
Declare today my independence day
Focus on school
Demand respect
Learn to relax
Don't make excuses for other people
Keep my standards high
Pay attention to warning signs
Look forward to Christmas break
Take care of myself
Be honest
Learn from my mistakes
Laugh at it all


Above all, remember that I am a princess and deserve to be treated as such.




(Pretty Foods blog)

All for the best.

Following some personal tribulations (probably best not to disclose on here), I am at home drinking a smoothie and eating an egg sandwich. This is what my body needs.

I was up early for an appointment this morning on campus. But now I am ready to take it easy.

The rest of today's adgenda:
Enjoying breakfast (and that is OK)
Listening to Christmas music
Watching Christmas movies
Napping
Talking to friends
Spending an obscene amount of time on Facebook
Journaling


I am feeling so much better than I have in the past several days. Some time to relax from school and think about what is important was key. It seems as though I am about to make the most difficult decision of my entire life. Wish me luck!

But tomorrow is Friday.

Dear Thursday,
I regret to inform you we are no longer on speaking terms.

Ever yours,
Annie



4:45 AM- Waking up to be first to register at 5 for next semester classes
5:45 AM- After scrutinizing every detail of schedule, jump back in bed
7:30 AM- Alarm set for 8 o'clock doctor appointment
9:00 AM- Probably stay on campus and work on a paper or go home to crawl into bed again
11:45 AM-Psychology
1:10 PM- Math (AKA ignoring math work and starting a University 150 paper, whoops)
2:25 PM- Downing cups of coffee and starting English or Human Growth work
4:00 PM- University 150 where I will hand over a flawless paper
5:15 PM- Activity Center for cardio and maybe some rock wall climbing
7:00 PM- Attempt to fall into a deep sleep until I hear sleigh bells signifying Christmastime :)

Change.

Recently the weather here has been lovely. I feel fortunate to be able to stroll that campus in seventy degree weather while other students are forced to face frigid temperatures. Something unlucky is my inability to visit family over the Thanksgiving holiday. I'm left to fend for my own and create a massive and flawlessly cooked dinner for Sam and myself. We did, however, have a good friend offer us a place to stay in Santa Fe with her loved ones. I guess we'll see if anything pans out.

School has been so stressful and I'm looking forward to the break next month. I can't believe it's already November! My time here has gone by so fast. I'll be visiting my dad first and heading south in time for Christmas day with my mom and brothers. There is so much I want to do and so many important individuals to see. Last summer I felt guilty for not spending enough quality time with everyone in town. I think this time around I'm going to take it easy and not worry so much.

I've felt so out of touch with reality in the recent months. It seems like poor eating and sleeping habits are really catching up with me. I'm getting more anxious as the days go on and needed a proper outlet. There is a counseling center on campus at no charge to students. I visited today and filled out the necessary forms to talk to a psychologist. My appointment is for next week and I'm looking forward to venting. I realize what I burden sharing problems with someone close to me can be. Having an unbiased opinion about the choices I'm making will provide some constructive criticism for me. I have so much to work on before this next semester.